The miracle of Magnimity (Part III)
I always knew i had a flair to be selfless and “good” every once in a while…..But it is such a great feeling, almost like a releif that spreads throughout your body almost as conveniently as venom……….
Im competitive…i always thought it was my most “sale-able” trait…..something i could confidently pitch to a Boardroom, an interviewer, even people i was related to…..Ironically i found out it caused me more pain than good………perhaps because i have such a destructive nature…….
I once read in a book by Carlos Ruiz Zafon “He was like a mirage to me. You don’t question its reality, you simply follow it untill it vanishes…………or untill it destroys you.”
Why do i remember this particular piece from a 700 page book because i realised how much i identify with it……..that is what ive always done…….so if we are to draw an inference…….my life is a bundle of mirages???!!!!! Things ive pursued, people i have desired, material objects ive collected, worshipped and gaurded………It is an endless pursuit………And you will not believe what i found to be worth more than all of this……a sincere reply to a colleague’s question “Do you think i have a chance at a job abroad?”……without contemplating my reply in 1000 hideous ways….: “i shud tell her to leave, because then i will be the center of attention. OR thank god i can get her out of my way…..that way i’ll be eligible for the next increment solely”……. I replied sincerely
Yes a hundred selfish thoughts and one powerful act: sincerity………..
Anyway ive effectively had the most unproductive day of all the gazillion number of unproductive days ive had so far……….with this damn country ready to blow up anyone and everyone…….even the cinema is not a choice anymore……no wonder there are so many fat, unhappy people in this city……the damn place has no entertainment………except hoggingggg!!!!!!!
SO i guess it’s going to be waj & fuz, Gopi the cat, Gopi (not the cat), my ipod, the third season of LOST, my new book: the NO Asshole Rule and maybe bhatti ……… if he has time n he can leave his mommmyy alone at home….
Chao!!!!!!!!!
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