The miracle of Magnimity (Part II)

You see i realised it is time for a normal blog so here goes…….(obviously in light of the last one)

On Saturday i attended my first training session. Although the topic was not much of an interest to me, yet i thoroughly enjoyed it. Obviously because it feels good to be in the lime light …. for me……its a survival instinct. I know i crave and thrive on attention…….its a dangerous need you know. The only dependable source of motivation n happiness is from within. One of my really close friends, Muhammad Ali, who was at the time adjunct faculty memeber at LUMS University, used to warn me …… i still remember that and sometimes smile to myself at how well he knew me because recently ive realised its true………..

in the last 6 months ive stressed myself to the point of being on the brink of insanity ….. primarily because i let people damage my self-confidence…….how vulnerable?

Anyway getting back to the miracle……….you know i’m a cynic……..the half-empty kinna gal……….i cant remeber the last time i was in a relationship (any) and did not have suspicions about the other person’s intentions………especially when they r about to make a so-called gesture………………

But recently, like so many other things that ive experienced for the first time……i witnessed what i call the miracle of magnanimity……for the first time in my life………i was given something by someone………..without an ulterior motive………just for who i am……..

Unbelievable……..yes it is! There are still people out there who will enter your lives out of nowhere and sweep you off your feet……..without a fairy tale……….

~ by maryanahmed on July 18, 2007.