The miracle of attention, admiration and what follows Part I

Im definitely sleepy/groggy. U see my system works in wierd ways……I have wasted half of my life….sleeping….and the other half……after men! I feel i cud’ve accomplished so much if only i could’ve somehow controlled my compulsive nature…….

I still have days when i will just thing of something insane to do…..usually which has to do with throwing away money…….or being with someone that i don’t really want to be with in the first place…….all consequences of my confusion.

But anyway this was supposed to be a happy note…….i really wish i had written this on saturday evening, as Gopi said “he had not heard me this happy in the 3 months or so.” Must have been really happy……i think i was…..because i remember it was FM 89 (Radio channel)’s b-day that day……..n the DJ was playing Jazzy B’s “Jinnay Mera Dil Luteya”….ho ho…..Jinnay Mainoon Maar Suttyaa…..ho ho…..Lak patla balori uday nain nain……….seeeeeeee………this is wat im talking about………the music blaring and me swingin my hips and dancing in the car, in the garage followed by a wierd entry……. [U shud've seen the look on my brothers' faces.......LOL......it was fun]

~ by maryanahmed on July 16, 2007.